2005-07-30 - 7:49 p.m.

I apologise to everyone for not having written in so long. When I went back home I made a count of my journal entries and I found that I had written more in my first three months in country than I have in the last 9. It is not always easy to find the time to write or to think of anything to write about. I tend to abstain from writing about my work because I feel like I’m bragging or being pompous when I do. I didn’t come over here so that everyone would tell me what I great person I was or how they wish there were more people in the world like me. Frankly I hate it when they do. It makes me feel awkward and I don’t think I deserve it. I know they all mean the best, and only appreciate those that do anything for the less fortunate. I feel the same about other, more serious philanthropists. I pale in comparison to those great people that are able to bring about great change and alleviate suffering. That being said it seems that on my return home, one of my biggest requests was for more entries on what I do at work I will do my best fulfil it, but understand that work itself is generally my primary hindrance in writing. As I revealed to many of you on my trip home, it is not always so easy to live here. There is no love for the western world in the region I am living. Especially with our current global conflicts. I must therefore give thanks to my mentors friends and family that give me courage and strength to stay here and keep working.

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